acne.

at a loss of contentment when i look in the mirror... this is a new issue that arose just a few weeks ago. jokingly i claim that i am twenty-seven going on thirteen. it is an odd revelation that i should have to deal with this issue all over again, this time it is even more heart breaking because i once had good skin. lately the rashes have become worse and i sit and dwell on the scars, it feels debilitating and makes me want to just stay inside. washing my face has become this chemical science experiment and all day long i obsess over my appearance and how i can cure this "disease". hundreds of dollars and doctors... facials and online research all give me advice and recommend this and that, yet my skin has yet to improve. i feel helpless and hopeless in the healing process and have come to terms that maybe this skin problem just adds "character" to my appearance. i gather empathy for those that suffer from this and have improved in my make.up concealing skills. i wish, hope and pray everyday that soon my skin and body will regulate it's self to balance the problem from within and i will see my clear complexion glow once more.