Monday, January 19, 2015

"what are you looking for?"

one could ask this simple ..
question.

placed in the crossfire of selfish needs
mixed signals
and a chance for hope and comfort
i went to a place of worship.
a place to find peace .. hear a piano.
he asked a powerful
thought.

what am i looking for?

at first i thought of my flame
the human flesh that i adore
but that isn't it. i am thankful
of God's gift of this human ..
but he isn't what i seek. he is
my mate. i am lusting after
currency because i assume that
it will make my journey ..
happen. but that isn't the point
at all. i am looking for

connection
influence
mentor
teacher
partner
love
beauty
artistic freedom
hope
travel
experience
brilliance
creation.

that is what i seek.
i see now that i do indeed
have a purpose. i crave an
upside-down adventure,
so here she is. reassured once
again .. magic is from the spirit
so are miracles. given at will
for you to accept.

i agree. jesus please be with me
for i am about to jump DANCE.

Sunday, January 18, 2015

17 likes.

this transparent parallelogram of what is the relevance of it's substance.
i see that it is what is congruent of how currency
controls the traffic
when else are you
secure?

how else are we to be controlled
subjected to elegance
and stride.
i am gracious enough to excel
when all else fails.
sales have fallen and else
has stalled. but in growth,
the still ness concludes what
else is the grace
of amor .

my darling
i am sorry i missed
your call.

i was busy listening
to records of what
was our future
life

| parallel |

Sunday, January 11, 2015

home.

he said home is where the heart is.
i admire him.
i adore him.

now i lay in this dark room surrounded by the past and memories flooding the air... tears fall from the sky in california, two days in a row. i suppose they are a sign of my own falling. i am unsure how to pick myself off this slope... slippery i have slid to the bottom. i envision booking flights, finding storage and going east to rest. i have then given up hope in love. given up hope in success... given up a chance to survive the west coast. making these arrangements hurts more than i could imagine. but the best has already come... he was in human form, then he turned a corner and i may never see him again.

Saturday, January 10, 2015

sublime.

hitting several stops before the continuation of my journey.
i don't know which way to go.
"resting" as if i haven't collected enough rest...

saline flows with a sound of sorrow as i pass down my usual route. the city streets offer no support for this type of outburst. so i'll take it as a sign to just go home. walking the slow pace .. lead leading my legs towards some point of stopping.

now i am overwhelmed with responsibilities and no desire to adhere to any one direction .. my road seems to swerve in all directions. i find it difficult to believe that it leads me no where? so the silver lining is in the gray cloudy day.. more rain for california.

Wednesday, January 7, 2015


16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.


Matthew 5:16King James Version (KJV)

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

"si, amor!"

feeling secure in the realm of human connection
rejuvenated body, mind and spirit. 

"inspirational travels."
mi amor.

the essence feels still without him
but i see the opportunity 
reflected in the mirror. 
alternative lifestyle in the 
collection of purpose.

336 lovely hours to explore
the soul that abides and engages
within this being. cells exploited
and parted ways with some 
so exquiste. each minute lingers
and so it will be remembered.
"home is where the heart is".

this love. 


Sunday, January 4, 2015

kickstart.

after several days of deliberation, concentration and realization .. i have come to the conclusion, i must ask for help. 

the holiday was a quiet display of how a well curated existence could benefit each and every one of us. we all hold the key to our own future, it's just a matter of finding your "door(s)". it took me several months .. even years of planning, moving and presenting my work to even begin to scratch the surface of this project, but i now feel confident and have clarity. with clarity comes awareness and an absolute determination of coexistence. i have found a similar vibration within another soul with which i wish to create. days of constant simplicity .. yoga, quality food, meditation, peace, calm, love .. almost two weeks of a flexible routine that is rest assured, now i can begin with the next phase.


funding for:
artistic catalyst. 


  • having or revealing natural creative skill. 
  • a person or thing that precipitates an event. 

this includes all resources and ideas in which i will create the future body of work. it will include material and pieces created while traveling across the country and my early west coast works. the project will also include inspiration from close friends and a collaboration of artist to showcase gallery pieces and sound vibrations. the project will conclude at the end of the year with an event which all are invited to enjoy the
celebration.