time passes at a speed that is a whirlwind of good vibes and friendly engagements. i am unsure of my reasoning for leaving this island in the first place, but i suppose that once you go you return with a fresh perspective. it was hard to leave the one i choose to love, alone, on the lonely west coast. he was uneasy and caused tangles of insecurity over the whole trip. i took this as a chance to practice self preservation and tried not to let him upset my beautiful smile. instead i woke up early and swam with mother earth in her caribbean style sea, laid in the shining rays, danced with my best female counter parts and combed the sand in a southern region. taking time for myself to become at peace, visiting new places in old victorian homes and listening to my favorite bands play their best songs upon my request. this time was blissful and many things have... and haven't changed. i have. i feel new and vibrant. my skin is a more familiar color and my hair still curls better dipped in sea salt.
i ponder the thought of next time before i've already left. maybe even begin to envision the fall here with someone special. it is too soon to say and honestly my truth is untold because it isn't really up to me anyway. until then i say a prayer that my purpose becomes unfolded in a way that allows me to have personal, emotional security and the bravery to say how i feel. amen.
